Religion vs Science

you know, religion has its own mysterious ways of turning things ard.. yes, shedding that well needed enlightenment...and suddenly there's a silver lining behind every dark cloud.

Ji Gong Huo Fo ( JGHF) says you're studying hard in melbourne. ha. are you? *raise eyebrown* haha.. anyways.. yeah.. when pple say god is omipotent.. i definately agree. today, JGHF touched on so many issues that hit home. He told mum that he should have more faith in her kids. ( yeah so much for raising us in the " you're dumb and stupid environment) and that scolding and educating were two seperate issues altogether. scolding, you're venting your anger... whereas educating, is about teaching them something.. making them see the light.. yeah.. JGHF spefically told mum she was wrong in this area.. ( i could have hugged him)

oh you know what, mum's dad came by and talked to JGHF today.. talk bout the mysteries of the spiritual world. the details i'm not too sure, but yeah.. apparently her dad dropped by.. i wonder if the spirits are always beside us listening to all that is being said.

its been more than ten years since we've been praying to JGHF... and yeah. he is definately a major part of my life. which is also why i find it really hard to get attached to any random guy. becos, i believe in JGHF, and religion being such a personal thing... i would like my partner to be a part of it all........ unfortunately... there are just too many non believers out there.. today JGHF told me that i should use my head to think properly, and see clearly and in my heart i need to know what i want. he says this three sentences i must remember and its more than sufficient. Really? one can never have too many hints in this game of life.. ha.. but nonetheless, today has cleared alot of airs and i'm feeling way better as well. hmm but i have a feeling i shouldnt be stepping into a relationship. you know what i mean? yeah... why cant god just drop a guy at my doorstep.

Did you read the da vinci code? it seems that alot of stuff in the bible is fallacy.. and that religion was a means of gaining power and control over pple... however, when you have a medium in front of you and you are communicating with "god". theres nothing more convincing.

today ching was asking bout PSLE stuff.. and i remember not too long ago i was there too. asking bout PSLE.. and i remember JGHF wrote me a poem saying that my name will be on the board if i studied hard. yeah it happened.. for O levels when i got my 9 dist. i got to see my name on the board of top students. A coincidence?

regardless, for me, he has been a silent pillar of strength in times of fear... loss and loneliness... times when i walk the back alleys alone, he was there, when i was unsure of which direction to take, i could always talk to him about it. yeah... he was always there.. he asked me, when i'm in england, how do i find him? ha... i replied that i could find in the sky.. he said that's not correct, cos all that exists in the sky, are clouds. In your heart, is where i can find him. yeah.. totally true. Faith has immense powers.

hey.. who's dan? cos i was going through the blog and you mention dan, but intially i tot it was rudy, but i realise that you mention rudy as rudy.. so how is dan? * mysterious music* haha..

how.. i'm hesistant to get close to him now. after today. think i'm superstitious? nah.. but my intuition tells me he aint gonna be the one. ha.. darn, its like i'm cursing myself even before anything has happened. maybe i am paraniod.

but hey lets put this rationally. i have more to lose by stepping into it.. then steering away from it right? after all this is my second yr, i hve alot more to focus one.. as this years grades count towards my degree and my placement stuff as well........

how now brown cow?

oh well.. see how it goes....

talking boout philosophy.. remember how when i was in sec four, i was really into sophie's world ( this book by Jostien Gaardner) yeah.. was totally fascinated with the thoughts of pple like socrates and plato... and the cogito ergo sum. ha.. you're one year late babe! *wink* i could stop questioning my own identity..these things get to you when you think too much.. ( you see that's why most philosophers were quite mad).. philosophy is good to help evoke some thought process.. for reflection. developement and s[iritual growth. but never let it become the bane of your existence. BALANCE!

i brought grandma to toa pah yoa today.. yeah just me and her, and we took bus.. mut have been quite a sight. cos alot of pple were lookin at me.. ha.. how many two year olds go out shopping with their grandma?? oh well, at least there was a sense of satisfaction that i manage to dig out some time to spend it with ah mah.. yeah.. and i bought her a tub of teh tarik ice cream. YUM!

haha.. okies.. when the boat reaches the jetty it'll be straight.. i hope my boat reaches the jetty for a start....

hmmm.. ha.. you tihnk i'm extrovert?? do you knoe that i'm acutally an introvert?? yeah took some perosnality test in Nanyang.. i think my extroverted nature is a cover up.. ha.. dunno.. i'm still on the road of self discovery.. but like i always tell my frens, i'm like a sheet of malleable metal. i bend and form according to my environment. which is why i need a perfect boyfriend..

ha.. what do you view me as anyways... just seekin a third person's perspective here.......*bribes you with teh tarik ice cream* haha.. ok.. but yeah.. cos you've made alot of judgements in your previous blog.. which.. well.. may not be the true me.. but then again, is there a true me? who am i? i think therefore i am. cogito ergo sum.

i see my cheese. just need to know if i'm a mouse that likes cheese.....