cursed?or fate?

damn. as much as i dont want to believe in fate. i think i'm not fated to talk to him -shaun. i msged him (MSN) in the evening and all i got was "i got a new phone". before i got signed out. and... later at night when i saw him online, i msged him again and guess what. he went offline. now. is he avoiding me? or... am i just so damn unlucky. why cant i even talk to him. =( ok. i know i shouldn't be bothered, but... i just feel like talking. just checking out how he is...cant i? humphs. life sucks. really sucks. =( sometime i wonder why people make plans. nothing goes the way you plan it to be. ughh..