damn the world.

saw that you didnt get to complete your draft but yeah you're probably busy busy busy again. oh well, i think i' in one of my depressing moods again. and that sucks. ughh. i want to be isolated. but then hiding is not a solution. and so, i'm at a loss. but yeah. WHATEVER.

i have an attitude. and so? live with it or walk away. this is what i am. dont like it? then leave. ughh. i just annoyed. annoyed at everything and anything. bleah.

i miss secondary school days. school, home, school, play, home. simple. not like things are much more complicated now but emotions are flowing and emotions cannot be controlled which makes matters worse. school sucks. there is no bonding, no time for bonding. and to make matters worse, i AM ANTISOCIAL.

uni life is different much different. i rely on friends from palmerston which isnt many to begin with. i wonder what will i do without them. sigh. my life now rotates around school, home, occasional shopping sprees with serene and charlene. and that's about it. man. i hate my life TOTALLY.

we celebrated jia wen's 18th birthday yesterday. and yes, it was fun. but whatever it wasnt my birthday so i shant elaborate. i mean you wouldnt be interested anyway. i want to turn 18. 17 is just like living hell i tell you. there is freaking nothing you can do. SERIOUSLY. i know you've been through 17 but it's different. being 17 in s'pore and in melb is so different.

i can list a whole list of stuff of what i cannot do at 17 and that irritates me like hell! i cant learn driving till oct. cant pub or club legally. cant stay on my own, have to go for stupid NIGHT classes. have to get mum and dad to sign my work permit for me, no credit card, in fact cant apply for any card at all. and there's more lah. pisses the hell out of me.i get stuck at everything i want to do just because i'm not freaking 18. !@#$%^%&&@#$%%^&

Grrr.. i want to be 24 and stay there FOREVER.

i was looking through my photos and those that we took in london :) brought back lots of memories. nice ones. but i'm still annoyed! :S

sigh. i think i might go back in june. everyone is going back then maybe i can celebrate my 18th in advance. hahs. this is damn sad ok. i'll be celebrating my 18th and 21st out of singapore. someone shoot me. ughh..

and yes, you planning to come back in dec? then you can pack your stuff if we're moving and then we can go for a short holiday but i heard that you'd have to save your leave for new year. :)

hope to see you soon tho' have fun :D

blog soon yah. and save me from boredom.

love, shu.