FAT and Stupid

bleah.. i'm not in the best of moods.. sigh......... i wish i was one of those that can never gain weight...... bleah. i'm fat and ugly.. and nobody loves me......

ok enough of self wallowing... grrr...... anyways. i've booked an airticket to go back in easter! butyeah i'm planning to do a surprise return thing so i'm not telling mum or dad.. its freaking 550 poounds to go back!!!!!!!! and i'm jsut going back for two weeeks.. sigh.. i guess when you're in a relationship you just have to give and take.... grrr............ but the question is .. just how much you wanna give?!!!

ha.. ok.. but yeha.i'm flyin on KLM.. ob the 19th.. ok i'm tellin you this.. so in the event that anything happens at least one family member knows bout my whereabouts.. hahahah.. yeah.. hmmm.. guess you must be dreading going home i guess... i forgot which date you were suppose to flying back to aussie..

hmm.. i really dunno if i can go and look for you in summer.. cos i think i'll starting my work soon.. if i can decide on which company to work for and if some company decides to hire me.. so what have you beeen doing all day?? life if coming to a stand still. i'llbe handing over soon.. so that's something to add to the stress factor.. yeah.. tryin to get all the food issues and the annual report done and the power point presentation as well... i've applied for a placemtn job with this company called Ricket and Benckiser.. (they are the number one in household products like Dettol, Haze air freshener... calgon... the insecticide.... and yeah.. loads of stuff) but cos the four candidates who went for the interview were supposedly just as good they've given us a new task to complete.. now the issue is.. i'm two minds bout working for this.. cos i wanna work for 3m..but the results of three wont come out til much much later.. i mean i still have yet to go for assessment centre test..... so yeah.. i dunno. and i've got an offer with this company called Invista that does all your fabrics like teflon... and lycra and.. yeah.. you get the idea right.. and invista is paying 14,000 per annum.. though maybe the job scope isnt as interesting as the R& B one.. yeah..

so have you mail my parcel thing??? sigh.. cant trust you with things. i bet now you've got your bedsheet.. you're in like lala land.......... gggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
anyway. i had a good chat with jin the other day.. and yeah i told him bougt wha ti felt.. like sometimes... i wish he would be quicker to catch on.. and you know.. yeah. the whole intellect thing.. guess..life is never straight forward is it? and yeah.. my placment is a whole load harder cos he might be getting funding to stay on the next threee years............. argh.........

i haven spoken to anyone at home for a while.. how are things going on? hey share the thingy that i sent you guys k.. the cut out cardboard thing.. you 're suppose to piece them together and make something out of it.. yep... alright.. maybe i shall go for a run.......

i'm fat
i'm fat
i'm fat
i'm fat
i'm fat
i'm fat
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i'm fat
i'm fat
i'm fat
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i'm fat
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i'm fat
i'm fat

ok maybe not so fat.

but still fat.
bleah..
not having alot of self confidence now am i?

i need to get a new mouth.

blame it on the english pple and their way of life!

ta.